3 Bulan Mencari Dia

Here am I, sitting in front of my bro’s lappy (also mostly used by me =) ), drinking plain coffee, with my cat sleeping on chair beside me while listening Amy Winehouse. She has a good voice if I might add.

Life is good. These feelings are rare to me. It came to me only at times like these. Specifically, right after I settled down; resolved my problems. Heh…I know these sounded sissy. I can’t help it u know. Feels like my chest filled with all those goodness, u know? I’m relaxed. My head cleared without usual pain. I really wished Z was here. I wished she’ll always be here beside me. God, I missed her! Whatever, man…8 years to go. Dammit, THAT’ll took me forever!!

I need to lay down. I’m tired. Tired of every thing yet to come. Abg Shah will continue his job routine again this Sunday and so will everyone. At least, I got to see my mom’s and dad’s face happy. Clearly showed in their faces. I know my dad tried to hide it…heh….I guess he just can’t help it. Everyone is happy. Both families had a great time together although its not much. Again, I wished she could be there just now. Man, I would go wee-wee over her sometime. I don’t know how long this’ll longed. I need to focus – I’m in a whole new world right now and everything is fast and hard. I hate it when I had to put my thoughts to only one thing and not having fun while at it. And that’s where Z came in…She’ll wash all these pain away.

God, I know I’m just a dot in this world but hear me…Please Almighty God, give me just one chance to meet her or go out with her for one whole day. By that time, I sure of it that, I’ll make that day marked on the calender. *Sigh* …

I’m sorry if I’m not myself. Its just, I’ve been keeping this for way too long. And I don’t think someone will understand. Who will understand? If I ask myself, even I won’t get it but still, I bent it. Imagine, a girl who deeply in lurve to a boy and misses him like crazy; heart jumping all over around, but all of a sudden, she silent. Just like that….Not even a message, a call, anything! It took me like 2 weeks to get a hold of her. One message: “I don’t feel like replying everyone’s messages“. How does that feels? The reasons: “I wanna focus on one thing: Study and Dreams“. Hah! Right now, I absolutely have no comments on that. Just let it be; go with the flow….Whatever…

I really don’t want to ruin these feelings right now. Look at the bright side…I’m free! I can ‘gesel-gesel tilam‘ with hot chicks. Hahaha! Damn, I’m bad…heheheh…Wah! Look at the time…I gotta crash. Got class tomorrow…erm, today. Anyway, I’m really sorry ’bout the contents…I’m a lil’ disoriented while typing these…Daa~

~ by neosomosis on July 26, 2007.